22 February, 2011

somewhere in the middle

last week was difficult.

i don't really know why. nothing bad happened. i just felt unproductive and unmotivated. i didn't know how to get myself out of my funk. i almost always forget that sometimes you just have to live in the funk until it passes.

i always imagine perfection as being very "go, go, go" and high energy all the time, spending every moment of my day getting things done, feeling inspired, positive, and confident. i've always been sort of unwilling to consider that that might be an unrealistic goal...and probably a goal that wouldn't make me very happy if it was realized.

i've just never really liked the neutral, in-between moments. i'd rather be high or low, on one end of the spectrum. even though i've been on my medication and in counseling for more than a year now, i'm still learning that the middle ground is okay. it's where i should be spending most of my time.

it's just so much more fun up there on top of the world.


  1. I am a perfectionist too- it's horrible sometimes! We should be happy with the moment and see the glass half full, right?

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  3. This makes so much sense to me.

  4. I was JUST writing a friend last night and I said - "I am just so in the middle, here. Sometimes I feel like I am waiting for my life to start, but then I realize it has and it's good, it's just some days it doesn't FEEL like it, and I feel so just...in the middle." But, yes. I'm learning to make the most of it, too!

  5. you worded this perfectly. even when i was sick i'd get into such a horrible funk, feeling sorry for myself and almost ashamed that i was resting constantly. i felt like if i wasnt going going going and getting things done i was being a waste of space. so im learning the same things you are. in time we'll graasp it:)

  6. We are given winter for a reason...
    Even our Brilliant Creator saw a need to pull back and let the land of our lives lie fallow, but I completely agree. For some reason this state is the most puzzling of gifts. If you ever figure it out, let the rest of us know the secret ;)

  7. I'm the same way. Hopefully you get in your groove and stay there for a while!

    Ramblings of a Small Town Girl

  8. oh my goodness, I have trouble with the middle ground too. I get all like, "there's got to be something wrong, everything's going too smoothly." haha, oh well . . .

  9. I too used to think perfection was "go go go go," its taken me a long time to realize as well that its a pretty unrealistic goal...this is a great post! I totally relate!

  10. I know how you feel. I wish I was a get up & go type of girl...busy, busy, busy but thats just not me. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough lol.


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