so the problem i alluded to earlier had to do with the wedding. we've been debating whether or not to call it off over the last couple weeks. not the marriage, just the wedding.
it all boiled down to $2,000. it was all the money we needed to be able to pull it off, but we had no way to come up with it. none whatsoever.
let me tell you - we have been stressed over here. like sick-to-our-stomachs-constant-headaches-can't-focus-on-anything-can-hardly-eat STRESSED.
so last night we asked my mom if we could borrow the money, and she said yes! now the wedding IS happening.
it's a relief to have that finally settled. at the last hour. with only 5 weeks to go.
now, hopefully, i can start looking forward to it because, honestly, i've just been dreading the whole thing...probably the entire time we've been planning it actually. i don't think anyone will ever understand just how difficult this time has been for us. my family will be the closest to understanding. i know every wedding is stressful, but this was not your average wedding stress. maybe i'll tell you about it someday, but today, i'm just happy to know there's a way to make this thing happen.
today is my first dress fitting.
maybe now i'll finally get to feel like a bride.
i'm going to try my absolute hardest to enjoy this last month. i think i'll be able to now that we know it can and will happen.
praise jesus!!!