can i talk about babies here?
yes, i think so.
i would like some.
my desire for a baby is getting stronger and stronger. levi and i have a plan, and we intend to stick to it... but still, if i'm being honest, i don't think i'd be upset if a baby came earlier than scheduled.
there are so many things i want to be on top of before i get pregnant. i want to be REALLY on top of my diet and exercise. i want to be secure in my body image. i want to feel more contentment with my life. these are things that i've been working really hard on in therapy this year.
and obviously, i want us to be financially stable.
i would love it if levi and i could travel more before we have children too... but i think a baby will come first for us. who says you can't travel with a baby anyway? i don't intend to let a baby make it so we can't do annnnything. i want our children to have as many amazing experiences as we can provide for them anyway. family travel would be awesome.
and while we're on the subject, i think i'd really like to have four babies. of course, i haven't even had one yet, so i may change my mind later. and levi isn't too sure about four... he likes the idea of three. but, just in case, we have four full names picked out - two for girls and two for boys. apparently, i think i have some control in the matter. ;)
the decision to start a family is so crazy to me. it's complex and simple. it's something i can't wait for and something i really can wait for. i know i'll never feel entirely ready, but i don't feel unready either.
so for now, baby is a goal for me. it's a phase in life i'm working towards. it's a very motivating goal, and it's something i think about every day.
'cause don't you think levi will make such a great papa?? i do!