last week was difficult.
i don't really know why. nothing bad happened. i just felt unproductive and unmotivated. i didn't know how to get myself out of my funk. i almost always forget that sometimes you just have to live in the funk until it passes.
i always imagine perfection as being very "go, go, go" and high energy all the time, spending every moment of my day getting things done, feeling inspired, positive, and confident. i've always been sort of unwilling to consider that that might be an unrealistic goal...and probably a goal that wouldn't make me very happy if it was realized.
i've just never really liked the neutral, in-between moments. i'd rather be high or low, on one end of the spectrum. even though i've been on my medication and in counseling for more than a year now, i'm still learning that the middle ground is okay. it's where i should be spending most of my time.
it's just so much more fun up there on top of the world.